i don’t think there are words to describe how much of a dick i feel (maybe that really improper sentence did?). 

tonight was a friend’s birthday party, i instead did absolutely nothing and am falling asleep on my couch. ugh, i need to go to bed and call him tomorrow and offer lunch or something.

i match my wall again.

birthday week continues (yeah i’m giving myself a week. i got my first ‘birthday call’ today from a good friend that i don’t see anymore, and that was the official start of it.)! cutthroat + aqua teen hunger force + in and out tomorrow (the ONE we have in this entire state).

fuckyeahlamebot’sbirthday.

i could make a tag out of myself if i felt like it. 

oh, and i think i’m headed to a soccer game on friday as well. jesus i love that my birthday is in summer. i had a slurpee for lunch today. i don’t even know how anything could get better. day off tomorrow. four day weekend this weekend. gonna get these in a few days or so. also getting this. also a birthday dinner at a teppanyaki restaurant. lots of sapporo. 

four years ago for my 19th birthday we threw down a bunch of 4th of july poppers at midnight on july 1st/july 2nd. 5 years ago was a crazy trip to vegas. birthdays are fucking awesome.

gpoyw - on a train edish.

I’ve been without my phone for about 14 hours, 8 of which I was sleeping through.

This is a lesson on how much we attach ourselves to something.

Last night after I sold my phone (which I will probably never sell a phone like that again. Long, bad story that I don’t feel like telling), I went to a pub to get a pork enchilada and maybe a beer.

After finding a table, I went to reach into my pocket to pull my phone out only to find it wasn’t there. Panic immediately set in and then I realized that oh, I just sold it not ten minutes ago. It’s weird how habits work. They have no grasp on reality or time. All habits care about is being there, just for you. Pushing you. Being a dick and hanging around, just so that you follow it.

So, after realizing that I have this old flip phone in my bag (I don’t care much for a phone if it goes in my bag. It will probably die in there.), I sat down. Ordered some food. Then wondered what time the world cup games were going to be on. I reached for my phone to check my app, only to be disappointed yet again.

I got the food and it looked good. Damn good. I wanted to take a picture of it (because well, that’s the type of boring gal I am) and instead looked over to find that hideous thing above. 

After finishing my food I went to an atm to get some money out and saw that Wells Fargo had the option to email your receipt to you. I selected that option then went to grab my iphone to check my email to see how it looked. Nope.

So I charlie browned it home.

After sitting at home for a little bit I decided to just go to bed. I played a little call of duty, didn’t check my email because I didn’t have a phone and my computer was off, and went to bed. I laid there for a long time. Usually my habit is to check emails, twitter, maybe tumblr and my feeds then go to bed. I laid there for a while, sent some texts, then fell asleep.

This morning I woke up deciding to do my squats only to realize that ah, I don’t have my phone with the app. So I did some random number of squats/pull ups/push ups/sit ups, didn’t twitter about anything that happened in the past 14 hours, and still haven’t checked my email even though I’m on the computer.

It’s really odd to think how much of our lives depend on things like this.

I mean, maybe you don’t have an iphone. Maybe you have a blackberry or droid. It’s the same thing. I bet randomly when you’re bored or when there’s a really long pause in an already awkward conversation, you pull out your phone and do something.

Anyway,  I get my new phone tomorrow (it’s not the 4G, by the way. It’s not unlocked yet and I’m on tmobile, I’m just upgrading to the 3gs late. I’ll be getting the 4g when it gets unlocked and someone decides they don’t want it anymore), and it’s going to be really nice to have all those apps back that I depend on so much. Even though I realize how attached I am, I don’t see myself changing.

It’s going to be an awfully boring day though. I may have to go outside or something. Hmm. 

this is what i looked like when i woke up this morning.

heyyyyyy